Knowing that you're being used a vessel, that you're being used in some way to bring down the Kingdom, is a phenomenal feeling. To be used by the King of the Universe is a huge honor and compliment. It's hard here sometimes, feeling connected to ministry and even evangelism but disconnected from the people and things I've known for so long.
It's a wonderful time of connection to God though. I have never felt more filled up and a true part of my father's work. No man could ever replace the relationship I have with Him now. I have the best father, mother, and lover ever. I cannot comprehend how a mere man could ever even catch my attention when I have someone as phenomenal as God. Guess that's better anyway: Because my God will have to show him to me. Furthermore, I will know that this man, whoever he may be, can never be the God I am so in love with. Helps a lot with expectation levels. He'll simply be a fellow vessel and follower I can serve our real MAN with. Seriously, though I have been lonely here at times, I am so happy that God has used that to draw me to Him. To help me abide in Him even more....to make me understand that I honestly need nothing else. If my job, my roommate, the potential of a husband and children, if all of it was gone tomorrow....for the first time, I actually feel that I'd be content. Imperfect but content.
